Its been a long road
These past 12 months
Chasing ghosts
If you don’t know what its like
You simply
Just don’t know
I had my reasons
To go so far I broke
In the depth to find the missing things
Myself
The self I burned to the ground for reasons unknown
Her names I forget
In these 12 months
I found a friend
Someone I can trust to be with
A person that has my back
One that will listen and be around
Naturally
A friend to swim with
Way out in the mind where there is no measurements
We swim far together
And write letters as the sun and moon wave to one another
Grateful to be at this moment I have barely thought much about
Until today and a few others
12 months straight sitting with my friend
Pure and washed over by the intensity of a nerve
In the old crows eyes of what freezes our intuition
What is a number after all
An anchor to look back at remind the moment
Realizing your goal is solidified
I remember the conversation when the strangers told me it was time
To go
To let go and say out loud what you somehow found so hard to say
I remember sitting on my couch playing the guitar
Alone
No friend in the world could enter his arena and understand
The broken of the broke
Fire so hot you forget
I loved hard for so long and died trying
Left it out in the spaces I will never see again
And as those embers faded in the rightful graves
Wind blew the dust
The plain was quiet
And not a sound for miles
In these 12 months
I collected wood for my friend
We have designed an early path that will lead where it will
But its new for him and I
We’ve been bruised already
In the early hours of new beginnings the fastest parts of life never slow
I can take his hand in the dark
Moving with intention
Moving through it with or without them
The others yelling outside the tracks
In an edge I can’t hear anymore
Now
A friend to whisper
Get back up
With our tired bones
And aging face
Hair almost gray all the way
Still standing
Life is lovely when its not and you are scared
Life is lonely when you forget what to do
Life is a wonderful mystery even with the map they made for you
Life is found in the lake’s summer arms
Life is how much I have met you face to face
Eye to eye ready for the challenging rhythm given to challenge
And as my friend and me get up for the moment
Once again
A little bit softer now
A little bit less loud
A little bit more tolerant
A little bit more kind
A little bit of nothing more than a soft fabric in the sunrise
My friend and I
I have no more promises to give
But the only one left I can truly promise
Here before the scenes as they play out in their finality
To never leave you again
My friend
My friend who is I
My friend who I found in the burning homes of all those mistakes
I found you
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